Wowwowwe, already been a week since my family from New York and Haslet New Jersey came to MTL. Lets see where should i start? oh I know. After Cat n Deidra cotillion I decided to come home. Well I came by the garage because i thought id surprise them from below, but it turns out i was the one surprised. The 1st person i see was a girl who i said to meself for a second Oh Melissa must have brought a friend but I thought again Oh my Goodness Julianne she 's not a baby nemore shes 12 whoa going to highschool??? Pat n Melissa still brotherly n sisterly love awwwww Dont change that btw rare to see a sister bite a chunk of there brothers chest off hahaha. Fred wid his boobytraps hahaha surprised yet not surprised to hear Fred liking other girls than asians?;) (THE CHALLENGE) us strutting our stuff 2 finger pushups, touch the ground wid our knees, Fred's Headstand wid his head and hit the keyboard off the printer hehe jks. Thats pyschadelic!. Piano duettes. To go or not to go Vatican. 1hr Parking my fault tho. Beaver Tails hmmmm. Pics wid the red blood cell. Cornrow hehe. Sperm game. Asswhole cleaners. Tagalog crying. The Beege doll U touch my balls I touch my head! n many more in a span of just 2 full days Wowwowwe!   

Spending sometime alone for the past 2 weeks i believe. No night out wid friends, no real chattin, no real phone calls too hehe just me and at most my family. I love my family its nice to go home to a family were i feel comfortable being around them n just be me i guess you can say which is weird because i view myself differently at home from outside world. Its weird how u can be portrayed as someone to ur friends outside in the world and be a total different person in ur home? I think the reason for it being that way is because u have to be a certain way at home that pleases u n ur family to behave a certain way. But this is the 1st time im behaving to the outside world as i am inside my home which is quiet and mainly serious n not feelin to talk all of the sudden but wtvr it is i think is whats wrong with being serious n i think its just me maturing, its weird hearing this but recently i found out its tiring being me, which is the person the world most sees unless im not comfortable yet? N my friend Adam says u dont just change who u are in the middle of ur life jokingly LMAO, like he even said i had something special now im normal like the rest of us which is flattering but whats wrong being normal too i though. Its weird but i get this feeling like i lost the sense of enthuiasm to want to make people laugh now most of the time or worse even wanting to initiate a talk. Like ill always try to answer someones questions the best of my ability but initiating like for me grew tiredsome n i feel ifsomeone wants to get to knoe me then theyll just approach ya know rather me wasting my time on them when they dont want me to. I guess the time alone really got me thinking how energy i used up on convo than rather using it on something else like read a good book which ive been doing. Like everyone thinks about how much they laughed or how much they missed someone for the laughing,but to me i dont just miss the laughs i miss the whole individual itself, because to me what if i wasnt funny or the talker orwtvr u should miss the entire person not for the sake of joking but rather the sake of their company. I guess being alone can also make ya go crazy too hehe i sound like it hehe by what i wrote but i know its just a phase cuz i need to focus on my goals.